Sometimes I feel pressure to do everything during fostering breaks. We are going on vacation on Friday, so I just have tomorrow to finish my to-do list for this break. I made freezer meals. I think that's the only one I accomplished. I tell myself we've been doing lots of fun stuff and soaking up this time as a family of four, and we really have. So why do I feel such dread knowing that I never cleaned out those cabinets, never got outgrown clothes ready for a sale? I need to let it go, and I'm having trouble doing that.
So, I'll continue listing things I'm thankful for during these few weeks.
- Camping for a week starting Friday. Even if it's not a perfect time, it's going to be so much easier without a baby.
- Dates. Partly by chance, we had two dates in a week, both very fun times with my very fun B.
- Game time. I've had time to play a card or board game with Dinosaur about every day, and he soaks it up.
- Boat time. We went to a friend's house on a lake, and got to enjoy having the four of us out on the boat together.
- New sitter. The woman from our church choir just babysat for a date night to get to know our biological kiddos, and she is beyond fantastic. She set up an obstacle course and wore them out. She's a genius.
- Fewer appointments. No waiting room time for weeks. Ahhh.
- Helping out another foster family with child care.
It's not all rosy. My emotions have evened out about Caterpillar's goodbye, but I've still been feeling a little off, a little flat. And I've put unhealthy pressure on myself to do many house things all at once. I'm looking forward to getting out of the house for a week, sitting outside, reading lots of books, and not reading a darn thing on the internet.
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